A Warrior? Me?

When I stepped forward to the very first mic (at MoMonday's) to share a story of my life, I never imagined that afterwards people would come up to me and say, "What you shared resonated with me so much, thank you for sharing." From that moment, I never looked back.

Back from what, you are asking? Back from not being of service.

The interesting thing when I was going through life was the consciousness of always thinking, "How do I get what I need?" That thinking led me to controlling others, being depressed, and more than likely, my lifelong battle with food.

That day sharing my story helped me understand that there is a light in each of us and that people learn they are not alone in their struggles.

So these are the reasons for today's blog: a) be of service (instead of what do I get), and b) to hopefully provide you with a little light.

I didn't know what the topic of this blog was really going to be but, like my artwork, I never really know until I start :)

So Warrior, eh? I never liked the word "Warrior." Why? Because it has the word "war" in it. But, I've learned over time that it just means to be passionate about what you do and to be a light for others. Doesn't mean I support war. To the contrary, I've always been opposed to "wars" because they mean only pain and suffering. But being a warrior basically (for me) is the same as a lightworker.

So what light to share with you? :) Well, I was recently back in therapy (at the well-intentioned suggestions of my daughters - thank you Cris and Ash). I had been struggling with the nasty CONTROL again, sinking down into depression and anxiety. I needed to learn many things as to why I was.

I was lacking in discipline, self-awareness, and introspection. I had fallen back into the habit of attempting to control (to change others) instead of following God's advice to live and let live. I actually went back to wearing my serenity prayer necklace so I would ACCEPT! (Look up the serenity prayer if you don't know it, it's the BEST!)

My therapy worked its wonders. At first, I was hesitant, prideful, and doubtful ("Again!", my brain screamed, "You don't need more therapy!!") Well, duh, yeah I did.

So, what's the result of my 8 weeks of therapy? I'll share ... a beautiful office of my own, I'm studying for certification as a peer support worker in mental health, I am happily in love and thriving in my grid of life (keeping things in balance - if you want to know more feel free to ask me).

So yes, I'm my own best self-care Warrior. And yes, I'll always fight for what I believe, being of service: (H.E.A.L. - help everyone achieve love) wherein there is balance for our mental & spiritual wellness. And that all beings shall be happy (which includes myself). Amen.

A warrior lights the way. Namaste.